4/9/15
Omg! The last few days have been eventful to say the least.
Where to even begin? I guess I’ll begin where I left off. Initially I was
overwhelmed to say the least (to be honest I still am). That night there was
supposed to be a red moon. We went to a beach in the middle of nowhere to see
it. The moon came up around 8:45. It was stunning. For the first time since I
had arrive in Puerto Jimenez it felt right. I feel like for some reason right
now in my life, this town, this place, is where I needed to be. We ended up
staying out very late. I didn’t want to be hung over on my first day of work so
I only had a few beers. I was surprised by the amount everyone else drank and
then got in cars to drive. Part of me was terrified to ride home. I was unable
to drive because I can’t drive a stick. [For years my mom has been trying to
teach me and I’ve told her it’s never been a problem. Well mom, as usual, you
were right. When I get home you can teach me to drive a stick.] By the time we
got home it was 11 p.m. and I was starving. I ate dinner and went to bed.

you can't tell in the picture, but the moon was bright red
I woke up at 5:30 the next morning and took a shower. My
beauty routine that used to consist of painting on a face, doing my hair, and
spending way too much time picking out an outfit has changed significantly. Now
after I get out of the cold shower I put my hair up as quickly as possible,
usually I don’t even brush it. However I happen to put it up is how it stays
for the rest of the day. I put on my first layer of bug spray, followed by max strength sunscreen, followed by another layer of bug spray. After that I put calamine lotion on my oh-so-many bug bites
and I grab whatever clothes are at the top of my pack and I’m good to go. It
takes me about 10 minutes including taking a shower. Yesterday my roommate saw a picture of me
from the day before I left and she said “what happened to you, you used to be
so pretty.” I couldn’t help but laugh. I guess humidity is not a good look on
me.
I guess a lot can change in a week
It wasn’t until halfway through my first day that I realized
I was not teaching the students, but that I am in fact a
student, a legit fucking high school student. I’m not sure where the
communication breakdown happened, but it did. I was mostly supposed to be with
the same class, a group of kids who the school wants to improve their
conversational English skills. I was registered for Math, Biology, Spanish,
History, Civics, English, and a traditional cooking class. To say I freaked out
when I realized is an understatement. I ran to the nearest restaurant with
wireless and called my mom almost in tears. I hated high school, I barely survived the
first time. There was no way I was going to spend 2 months as a high school
student. This is supposed to be Allison’s Grand Adventure, not Allison
Goes to High School Part II.
I contemplated packing my things that evening, getting on a
bus and backpacking around until I found a new volunteer program. Or better yet
enjoying another two week trip around Costa Rica and coming home. Maybe
temporarily moving to Costa Rica wasn’t for me after all. But then the image of
the moon the night before popped into my head and I calmed down. I found an
actual internet café and started checking into other volunteer programs in the
area. I found an organization that has multiple projects in the area. I
contacted them and within an hour I had heard back from a local animal shelter.
They need help with the animals, but also with social media and online
marketing and management. I will meet with them tomorrow morning.
They are also setting me up with an apartment closer to
town. While living 20 minutes from town is beautiful, I don’t have a car and
there is no bus and I am constantly dependent on Jessica for rides. Although
Jessica has been more than helpful and patient with me, because of the
location, I basically have to go where she wants when she wants. Coming from
the US, I also have a very different view of drinking and driving than the
ticos and ticas. It makes me quite nervous when we have 4 or 5 beers and have
to drive home. I would much rather be walking distance. Also, part of this
adventure is me learning to be independent, having to count on someone all the
time for things is not helping with my independence. My new home comes with air
conditioning and a door (my current room does not have door and attempts to
hang a curtain failed miserably). Although it is a bit more expensive than my
current location, my safety and sanity are worth it.
Although I’m starting to see a light at the end of the
tunnel, I’m having a much harder time emotionally then I thought I would. I
miss my dog, a lot. Even when things have been hard the last few years, I could
always count on puppy snuggles to make everything better. I miss my family and
friends. I miss all of the craziness and stupid situations I am running from
(yes I am more than willing to admit I’m running away from things, life gets messy and when you don't want to deal with it, moving to paradise is a great option). I miss watching tv with my mom and a good bottle of wine in the
evenings. I miss my life. I miss not sweating ALL THE TIME. I miss being dry.
It’s so damn hot I feel like I’m suffocating. My brain hurts from a combination
of the heat and trying to think in Spanish. I’m tired I haven’t slept well,
mostly because I can’t go more than an hour throughout the night without being attacked
by a rouge band of mosquitoes or sweating through my blankets. Part of me thinks this was a terrible
idea. I want my bed not an air mattress on the floor. I want to take a hot bath
and go to an air conditioned gym. I spend more time at the internet café than I
should just so I can have some connection to my friends and family at home.
But then I remind myself what I’m doing. Why I’m here. I
wanted an adventure. I wanted THIS adventure. No, it’s not playing out like I
thought it would, but what good adventure does? I wanted to push myself farther
out of my comfort zone than I have ever been. I wanted to throw everything I
knew about life out the window and try something new. I’m sure this would all
be much easier if I had a friend with me, if I had convinced someone else to
come on this insane journey with me, but I didn’t, it’s just me. And that is
ok. I will be ok. In fact I will be more than ok. I will thrive, because for
me, success and happiness is a choice. Every day at home I wake up and tell
myself to “choose your attitude” (thanks WOW). Why not do the same thing her? So for today and the rest of my
trip I choose to enjoy every moment. I am here to learn about myself and about
what I am capable of. I am here to find a direction or a path in life. I’m here
to discover new cultures and languages. I’m here to volunteer and make a
difference in the world. I’m here to have fun! I’m here for me.
This is the reason I am on an open ended trip. I can go home
whenever I want, but I can also stay as long as I want (and can afford). When I
think back to my time in Paris, I realize that it was very similar. The first
week I felt like I was on vacation; the second week I got unbelievably
homesick; by the end of the second month, I wanted nothing more than to stay
and travel longer. When I left for college it was quite similar as
well. I think freaking out a few weeks into the unknown is just something I do.
Committing to things for long periods of time terrifies me. I love having
adventures, but usually second guess myself once the adventure begins.
But I will make one long-term commitment and that is to
myself. I will listen to my heart on this trip. I know that sounds like some
cheesy line a Disney Princess would say right before her prince shows up on a white horse to whisk her away from some evil witch, but I
really do mean it. I will stay in each location as long as I am happy. I will
travel to the places that feel right. I will open myself up to the
possibilities that await. And when the moment comes that I feel like it’s time
to go home I will buy yet another one way ticket.
I have much more to write about my experiences over the past
few days including information about my awesome new home town, my thoughts on
the high school, how ticos are teaching me to live simply, and more, but for
now this is what I needed to write about.
And thus we begin Allison's Grand (Mis)Adventure. Stay tuned to see how things unfold!
Love you!
Al
On another fun note, as I was writing this, my whole right arm broke out in hives. I thought it was just mosquito bites but when I turned on the light to look at it I realized there are hives on my whole arm. Awesome…my first travel “sickness.” I don’t have any allergies I know of, but I guess they can always pop up. Hopefully I’ll be ok since the only 24 hour hospital is over an hour away. Good thing my dad made sure to put Benadryl in my mini pharmacy.